going from 0 to 1

It’s always hardest, I suppose, to make the first post happen because it’s got this feeling of, I don’t know, grandeur. Maybe stability too. It’s dying to be there–like the foundation of a house or the veteran on the team–to keep it all from destroying itself. The longer you wait the longer your fingers sink into the thought that it has to set the tone–you’ve got to bring this shit around and make it stand for something from the beginning. Otherwise jesus you’ve ruined it already. You’re an amateur gardener, killing plants before they’re even plants.

So this is the first post, and it’s already one of those terrible meta-posts. There’s nothing grand here, and so the whole technology of my thoughts is only getting better, going uphill, being painted in new colours. Great news.